Pretty Interesting few days
Thursday, January 22, 2009 // 1:27 AM
I met this Indian guy a few weeks ago while I was waiting for the bus outside his shop and it was soooo hot. He offered me a free water so I went inside and talked to him for a bit. He kept asking for my number until I told him I was 16 LOL. 2 days ago I went to the hairdressers and got my regrowth done and got the rest of my hair lightened so it wasn't so yellow. Came out practically white ewww. So I was waiting for the bus again and the curry guy was there and invited me into his shop. He sells extensions and other random products and he kept flattering me with compliments such as "your so beautiful why do you wear so much make-up?" and "I love your eyes, they look like the ocean" and it was cheesy but cute. Anyway he was showing me his extensions, they were so long and thick unlick the tacky pieces of crap at dandy, but they were $200. When i got on the bus I ran into my mate Aaron who ive known since I was 2 1/2. He's so hot and has just recently broken up with his gf so now he's on the market =D. Not that it effects me cus he's practically my brother. I got home and put in my extensions and realised they were so yellow compared to my hair. GREAT now I cant wear them OR tone them as they're synthetic.
Yesterday I had a really good day. I went to my Chisholm TAFE Assesment and i got 45/50 for the Year 11 section and 19/20 for the Year 12 section. I got to meet my Psychology teacher and shes pretty rad. While I was at the assesment I ran into Tanya, someone who I went to HPSC with in year 8. She has a 15 month old baby :O.
After that I caught the bus down to Dandy and looked around at the extensions. Some places were $120 but wasnt worth it. I found some for $100 but they were so thin! So i gave up and caught the bus to Springvale and went into 'AVADA INTERNATIONAL' (where the curry guy works, i think his name is TAHA)anyway Taha was pleased to see me again and gave me the biggest hug. I told him I wanted extensions so he went to the back and got these beautiful 20inch extensions that he had ordered in for me incase I wanted them. AND he was only going to ask for $150 instead of their $250 value. I didnt know what to do because I wasn't sure if he expected anything in return for the discount, but I bought them anyway and i LOVE them!! He ushered me into his back room to watch me put them in, and the next thing i knew he was hugging me and leaning his face in. So yea awkward for him after i rejected him. I feel bad but he is like 30, and im 16 so its just wrong anf he can get into trouble. I said bye and gave him a hug and assured him ide visit as 'friends'.
Went home, gotbathers, bussed it to Amandas, went Noble pool with her and Matt and had the BEST time ever. We stole some foam matt thing from someone and we were wrestling on it and trying to stand up. Gto burnt but it turned to tan by the next day. Stayed at hers with Matt and watched 'mr and mrs smith' and 'moulin rouge'.
I got picked up today and went to my interview at TAFE. I met my lit teacher who said she cant wait to teach me as my rsults show I am a good student and I seem to have a great personality. so yay. picked out my subjects and got my timetable and learned I have FRIDAYS OFF omg yay 3 day weekend all year!.
Also turns out my award that i got from HPSC is for media and they dont want to mail it to me cus it has a voucher in it (I was meant to go to the ceremony but it was Shannons birthday that night). So im goin there tomorow to pick it up. Fingers crossed its a movie voucher. Also got to go pick up school books and pay fees for TAFE. Then pools again with Shan, Manda and Matthew, and mums coming from Bendigo in the evening. Man my life is fun filled =D
Hers my extensions photo =D
I should go to bed
Tuesday, January 20, 2009 // 3:44 AM
I really should, but i'm not tired at all. I have an assesment tomorow to see if I can get into TAFE this year at 9am.. so sleeping would be a good idea. Im really worked up atm because a friend from school came on MSN and started talking to me about Bob and how his MSN nikname is a part from Kelly Clarksons new song 'my life would suck without you' and some of the lyrics are as follows..
"Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you
Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin’ to pick a fight
I know that I’ve got issues
But you’re pretty messed up too
Anyway, I found out I’m nothing without you
Cuz we belong together now"
And yea now its got my thinking.. is he finally grieving for what we lost? Has he moved past the hate stage and has realised that hes lost not only a 13 month relationship, but someone he gave his virginity too? and his best friend?
I hate it when he is brought up because I feel an awfull feeling inside me and I cant seem to shake it, sometimes for days at a time.
My puppy Skittles is getting tired, he keeps whining at me to take him to bed. He is a Chinese Crested Powder Puff and is absolutely adorable.
Oh and its Melanies 20th anniversary with her boyfriend. At least someone is happy. Grr i really dont like her, I never have despite her being Bob's best friend when we were together. I wouldnt say I hate her as im against the word 'HATE' but I truly would like to see her experience some form of pain or loss.
Anyway goodnight all, Im starting to feel really good about this blog thing. It saves my friends ears when I feel like having a rant.
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Kicking off the new year
// 1:49 AM
Well this is pretty random, a blog. I have the feeling i wont keep this up, nor will everyone ever read it.I guess i should start off with the basics...
Im 16 years of age and I'm currently about to commence Year 12 VCE at Chisholm TAFE. Ive been a brunette all my life but recently my 13 month relationship was ended and i felt i needed a change (ill go into more details soon) so now im platinum blonde. I'm warning you in advance that i will prob refer to my ex boyfriend quiet a bit (I'm not completely over him yet unfortunately). I live with my nan and grandpa as my parents are split. I recently got a job at KFC but i haven't started yet. I'm not a skinny girl and I'm trying my hardest to change that, 3 kilos so far after a month so I'm pretty pleased :D
Ive just come back from a holiday to Perth to visit my aunty and i wish I could stay there forever. Its so beautiful compared to Melbourne and the weather is hot but in a nice way. Ive gotten a bit of a tan so i wont have to pull out the can for a while. I got to see the dolphins and go shopping so i had a ball.
Last year I attended HPSC and have since I was in year 8, its a great school and I'm sad that I had no choice but to leave. The reason for that is because of the break up. I met this guy (lets call him Bob) halfway through year 9, who was my co-ordinators son. And despite that I developed the most massive crush on him, and vice versa, but we both didn't act upon it for months and months. I recall one night chatting away on MSN and I was about to confess to him how I felt, but I chickened out and changed the subject, which he picked up on. The next day he refused to look me in the eyes and wouldn't speak a word to me. Everyone had had suspicions about his sexuality so obviously I was crushed to have fallen for a 'gay'. Then eventually he confessed that he felt the same way but he was afraid of what would happen afterwards (he had never been in a relationship before, nor had a girl ever liked him before) so we stayed as friends for a while until i worked up the courage to ask him out. We went out for 2 months or so but broke up as you do at the age of 15.
In between the first break up I had managed to nab myself a new boyfriend, go through him and find a really nice guy up in bendigo who i was 'seeing' but not in a relationship with. I lost my virginity to him and I don't regret it one bit.
Anyway no less than 6 months later the feelings we had for each other were impossible to ignore and we began round 2. This time was certainly more blissful despite the fact we didnt kiss until 4 months into the relationship as he had never been kissed, or even hugged another girl before unless it was forced. I have to say those 4 months was so difficult. I felt single as i only saw him at school, and I go out every weekend so my life was basically no different. Im ashamed to admit that I did cheat on him. about a month into the relationship I saw the Bendigo guy again and stuff went on, and about 3 months into the relationship I was ready to call it quits (come on wha person can stay in a relationship that their partner wont even kiss you or hold your hand) and I met this really sweet guy who I was infatuated with, we hooked up and I was ready to call i quits and I think Bob saw this because the next thing I knew he was all over me all the time and our relationship got so much better from there. Anyway a few days before our 1 year Bob and I had a huge fight and we broke up, only to take it all back 5 seconds later crying on the phone, but things were different after that. It was if i was constantly reassuring myself that we were ok, and I was constantly worrying we would break up again.. and after a while we continued fighting and the influence from our friends was 'break up its not worth it' his friends and my friends hated the other person so it wasn't long before the influence eventually broke us up on the last day of year 11.
So thats why Im not going back there, all my girl friends have dropped out to work or go to TAFE and do a course, so I thought why not? So many people hate me at HPSC so I may aswell start fresh and finish year 12 away from the childish B.S.
Me and Bob dont talk anymore. I txted him at few days after the break up to end the relationship properly.. telling him he can have his stuff back and ill keep my mouth shut about his embarassing secrets only I know, and all I got back was insults about how 'disgusting I am' and how im a 'slut' who doesnt deserve anything. So he hates me, but I have no use in hating him. Sometimes I wish I could hate him, just to make not having him easier, but not everyone gets what they want.
Ashleigh